Cancer update #5
Today's update very exciting: we have a surgery date! Tomorrow evening we'll be driving up to Aberdeen for surgery the following morning. As these things work, I've waited weeks for surgery and have now been given a couple of days notice, but we are thankful to have almost everything in place to go. Praise God! He has provided a place for us to stay and people to help with lifts, children and food.
As I've mentioned before, the time away will be tough on little Reuben. He's now 10 months but still very much reliant on me during the night and for milk every few hours. He's also teething and feeling a little bit under the weather, so understandably wants his mummy most of the time. He seems to be a little happier taking a bottle, and the hospital looks like they're willing to be flexible on visiting hours during the day but it would be naive not to prepare for a few rough nights. I say a few, though we are not entirely sure how long I'll be in hospital, as this depends on the extent of the surgery. Since the previous surgeon didn't know he was dealing with cancer, the margins he took around the lump were not as wide as should have been. It is, therefore, understandable that he did not remove all signs of the sarcoma and that it has started to grow back. In the surgery on Thursday my new surgeon will attempt to achieve 2cm clear margin around damaged tissue, but he won't know what exactly he's dealing with until they cut me open. If the previous surgery looks like it stayed away from tendons, he'll be able to scrape them clean and leave everything in working order, but if not, they'll have to be removed and replaced with a couple of wires. This will mean any toes attached will be fixed in a permanently straight position - better than the floppy alternative! Either way, I'm likely to need a skin graft to patch it all together. Due to the uncertainly of the surgery, I could be in hospital anywhere from a single night to nearer a week.
For those of you who have been praying for us, thank you so much, we really do appreciate it. What a wonderful gift it is to be able to pray to our heavenly father and know that he hears and cares for us. My biggest prayer request his week would be for Reuben, that he would be comforted and it would be as trauma free as possible. Pray also that i would continue to trust in God's goodness, even if Reu has a hard time. Motherhood is a funny thing, even in the face of cancer, your baby's sleep causes you more anxiety! Pray I would cast all those anxieties onto God, who loves Reu even more than I do.